temporary separation.

hey.

no, this is not a letter for him. if i had written one, it wouldn't be this long. even though there is a lot that i would like to tell him, it wouldn't be this long. this is just an update. on us. him and i. we.

the last time we met was in october. i went to see him with mama at his practical place, somewhere in kuala selangor. i gave him some food i cooked. it was very special. i called him earlier saying that we are coming to send him some food. he thought we would eat out together. when i saw him, he was all dressed up for a date. and i wore a beautiful pink baju kurung. it was as though we were ready to go on a special candle light dinner or something. but not. it was brief. he sang a song and i cried. i said he is getting skinnier. he knew. practical did that. the stress and late nights. we bid farewell, though. it was one of the most difficult thing i had to do in my life. we bid adieu not knowing when will we see each other again.

fast forward five months.

we still haven't seen each other since that day </3

there are calls and messages and tears along the way but this is just temporary.

a temporary separation.

when will we meet again? who knows. only God knows.

the present hurts so much i don't even know how i am still breathing. we have never not seen each other this long. the duration, to us, is out of this world. too long. five months? to some it may seem a while but to us, who almost always meet at university for breakfast, lunch, dinner or night outs, it is a lifetime. years pass by yet we still survive. barely but surely. i always pray for us. i hope we could meet soon... separation sucks even if it is just temporary.

by the way, he's employed and started on March 1st. congratulations! meanwhile, i am still looking.