comfort zone.

you know the feeling you get when you are about to embark on something big and new and most probably a life changing choice you will make? yeah. i'm feeling that now. it is something big for me since i am going to gain a great benefit out of it. however, the anxiety of stepping out of my comfort zone is overwhelming. my fingers are cold. my heart is racing. my mind is scared. i am scared... at the same time, i want it. no, i need it. it's my turn to repay all the good deeds they have done for me. i need to get it. i need to be brave. i need to. i must. i should. i know i can do it. it's a big step for me. i'll update soon. maybe after i get it ;)